September 18, 2025

Katie is 9 weeks old since yesterday. Being a mother is very, very stressful, and I do appreciate the little moments like this while sitting back with my baby breastfeeding as she’s still so small.

I have two boys, they are 8 and 5, and at the moment the two of them were killing each other, beating each other up, slapping each other in the car. Last night one of their goldfish started to fade, and I even tried to save him by putting him into clean water with some salt. But this morning he passed away. So I had to bring the boys and the baby to the pet store to get the water tested for the remaining goldfish.

It was such a stressful experience. They’re always fighting each other anyway, and I knew it was a mistake to bring them in the car. But I thought, I can do it, I can get it together, I just need to be a grounded parent.

Anyway, it was just a disaster. Such a stressful time, they were shouting and kicking each other while I was driving, and I had the baby with me too.

Right now I’m just grateful to be sitting down, feeding Katie, and having a bit of quiet in the madness.